Life is difficult when we grow up

People have to grow up and face the world even though they might not wish to. There are many things we have not known and experienced about this world. We have to worry or think a lot about our future and how to run our life better. It does not look like when we are child, we do not have to care about anything. We are just normal and innocent kids playing around with our neighbors and going to schools with arranged schedules. There are nothings to consider about. That is so good. Sometimes, I wish I could go back to the time I were a little girl with full of happy childhood’s memories and the warm love of my parents. If like that, I do not have to know that life is not always simple. It is much more difficult and complicated than I thought.

Being protected by my parents and my family, I was always happy and felt safe. I just needed to go to schools and finished my duty of studying. They love me a lot. My mother is really a great mom. She took care of me and my sisters carefully, especially me because I was the first daughter in the family. I felt like my childhood was really lucky. When I was a little girl, my mom often told a lot of fairy tales stories for me. I love listening to those stories. Her voice was so warm and inspired. It took me to a different world and wonderland where such beautiful love stories happened, where prince and princes lived happily ever after. She cultivated my imagination and positive view about the world. She taught me how to be a good person and helped me a lot in my studying. She and my father were always by my side and encourage me whenever I was sad or had difficult problems in my student’s life. My father is not only a successful business man, but also a great father. Even though, he has a lot of works to do, he still takes good cares of his family. Therefore, I was protected by them carefully all the time I was in the family. However, when I went to abroad in America, I realized that I cannot rely on my parents anymore. I talked with myself that I need to be more mature and careful when I live far away from my family. And they were also really worried about me because I am very careless and clumsy. I am so easy to forget or loss my stuff all the time. That makes them wonder if I can live independently in a new country. I know I could get in troubles anytime because of my personality. Furthermore, I did not have any experiences to live with other people; it was my first time to live in a new family in The US. I thought I would be alright to live with my aunt’s family here and I also tried to get along with them. However, it was really hard time to be a part of a family here. Probably different culture, different thought made me stressful and feel not freedom and comfortable to live with them. Finally I had to move out, even though I still love and thanks my aunt’s family a lot about everything they had done for me. Right now, I am missing my little cousin a lot whenever I think about the happy and funny memories when I played with him. He also loves playing and following me around everywhere. I used to cry so much when I moved out. But I know I need to keep moving on and look forward in the future. Life is difficult. From the time I moved out, I totally feel that I need to do all of things by myself and whatever decisions I make are really important and affect my life consequently. There many things I have to think carefully and worry about. Right now, it is not only me; I need to present my parents to take care of my sister who has just been here to study with me also. I need to manage my finance properly and divide money for food, gasoline, tuition's fees, and books and so on. Therefore, I feel I have a big responsibility for myself and my family. If I were just a little girl, all of those worries would not exist. Thinking about the future, what I am going to be is also a hard thing with me. I actually do not know which major is suitable for me. I feel that I am not good at any special fields. However I need to decide and define my direction clearly to achieve it. I hope I could find out my favorite major in the future.

All of those difficult and worrying things will happen with anyone in the world. Those are the parts of life we have to get through to be more growing up and mature. I know it would be tough and hard sometimes when you experience those. You even might get hurt and want to give up. However, we need to be stronger to face the world and to be independent and responsible with our life.